I see a lot of meaning here in the lyrics but I don't understand what could possibly "counting to 15" mean. Because I guess that this phrase also has some meaning, which me, Polish boy can't understand

I LOVE MY NON BINARY PERSON 😍😍🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈

I actually think God loves all the people,gay bisexual or whatever.

🏳️‍🌈 Coming out to my parents on my birthday! (June 11th, Pride Month!) 🏳️‍🌈 To everyone who is also planning to come out, good luck, and if people don't accept you, trust me, there are so many people who will, including me!

'Counting to fifteen' because Troye used to count when he got anxious and also he came out when he was 15

Recently accepted myself as lesbian. My own internalized homophobia has held me back so many wasted years. I’ve got it now, and I don’t want heaven.

I'm scared to come out, I feel like I'll lose my family forever

Betty Who is a perfect partner for this song. It matches well with her song Wanna Be. Both songs having something about being forbidden and longing for something unattainable or abstract. About sacrifices and passion. Sure, her song's not about coming out or about the struggle of accepting the idea that you might not be able to enter heaven unless you forsake a part yourself, but I think the sadness, longing, and passion in Wanna Be matches the vibe in Troye Sivan's Heaven.By the way, please make a lyric video of Wanna Be by Betty Who.

I'm not lesbian but the lyrics run straight through my heart

I just came out to my mom. Two years ago, i remember she was shouting “you’re a disappointment , you’re sick”, while she was crying. In those times, she discovered i was going out with a girl, and when she realized it, the only thing that crossed my mind was to lie about it. I said that i was just carried by the moment. Idk why and how she believed me. My dad said me she couldn’t sleep those days. For 2 entire years, i believed it was all my fault. I felt very guilty, and i still do. That moment, ruined my whole life.I lied for almost 2 years, but today i just couldn’t take it anymore. And i just said it.She’s not proud of me, that is not even close to happen, but this time, she didn’t shout at me. She wasn’t crying. And she ate dinner with me, we were laughing. Right now she’s in her bed sleeping like a sleeping beauty.You just have to wait till the right moment. In the end, things are going to go well; bc that is how it works. I thought my mom will never “forgive me”, but she “did”. So i say to you: it is possible, because for me was possible. For me, at the end, the impossible was possible. So go on.

🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

I'm bisexual but I don't want to come out because I'm scared of how differently everyone will treat me

This honestly made me cry and think about the cruel world we love in?! My brother came out to our family 6 years ago and I don't give a damn if hes gay I love him no matter what, I have alot of gay friends and wouldnt change them for the world ..

I'll beber come out to ma parents, they'll hate me

Sometimes I hate being Catholic..

I came out recently I wasn't expired except for my close friends......today at school somebody questioned if I like a new girl and I lied and the reason this person questioned me is because I told a friend I liked her over text and a girl read it.....tomorrow at school everybody is gonna know....I lost a friend for it but its okay because I'm proud of myself and I think next time somebody questioned me sexuality or if I like this girl I will be honest....this song helped me realize I should be....and if I lose people then that's their problem and their gonna have to deal with it because this is me....i just turned 14 in January and I'm bisexual and proud of it!!❤💛💚💙💜

"if i'm losing a piece of me, maybe i dont want heaven" my hope is that one day christian members of the LGBTQ community can scream that to all the homophobic assholes and be accepted.I'm bisexual and also christian and ive said that at my homophobic and very religious mother, needless to say it didn't end very well

today, a student in Algeria got killed in the most horrible way by people from his uni, just for being gay, they took away his life for simply not fitting in what they want, its horrible how ppl can be this arrogant, I hope he is in a better place now, إنا لله و انا اليه راجعون

without changing part of me maybe i dont heaven

All my time is wasted, feeling like my heart’s mistaken.... 😩

"I never even asked to be this way."- Dodie Clark 'Rainbow'

Already in heaven! ! !

Not all Christians are homophobic. Don’t make that stereotype please. Not all of us take the Bible literally

What a powerful song

not a part of community but i support you guys keep going.choose love every single day.

i think i might come out when i turn fifteen (in like, a month oof). my parents said i could have a boyfriend when i reached that (i've been secretly dating a genderfluid person for six months but that's not the point) and it might be the cutoff point where my mom won't say "you're too young to know," as she did when i accidentally came out to her at thirteen. (i ended up "agreeing" and saying it was just a phase to get her off my back, start over, ya know?)god i'm terrified. but yeah. this song gives me hope. thanks, troyeand to all the other wonderful people who've put their stories in the comments and how they came out: jfc you're all so brave and amazing and i wanna hug every one of you! best of luck to those who want to come out, and to those who did and were met with rejection: we'll get through this. we're strong. i believe in ushave a lovely day, everyone :)

beautiful. i'm not in the LGBTQ+ community, but y'all deserve more than that "heaven" where you lose a part of yourself. God made you like this for a reason. Don't hide, live your live the way you want to, not the way others want you to. It may be harder than confining to other's ideas of you, but its better than being on your deathbed and realizing that your life was wasted being lived for someone else. I'm not saying this to just the LGBTQ+ community, I'm saying it to everyone. Don't become a doctor cause your parents are forcing you to, don't give up someone you love cause they aren't the same gender as you, don't quit something you love cause others are forcing you to. If, maybe it all goes wrong, you can at thee very least know that your life ended the way it did because of you, not because someone else chose your path for you. Anyways, this was super cheesy but I hope it helped someone feel better? idk skkssks

nah i've already accepted that im going to hell (welcome to the internet)

The very first time my boyfriend and I kissed (Were both gay and trans) this song came on his phone then, He asked me out. This song warms my heart :) Love you James

this song is actually really easy to understand,but so deep at the same time

So if iam losing a piece of me maybe i dont want heaven gets me everytime😭

"Without losing a piece of me,Without changing a pice of me.If I'm losing a piece of me,Maybe I don't want heaven."First thing I would say Be confident in everything you do that you don't have to lie about it.Change yourself, it's hard, but i guess it's worth it.Why?Just keep in mind that what your parents have done for you.

i came out to my parents late August and it was the worst thing i've ever gone through. Homophobic parents really suck, my mom is the one whos disappointed my dad on the other hand is okay with it (my parents are split up) the thing is i live with my mom so i see her every day, my mom talks crap about me to other family members all the time but this song has really helped me out a lot lately.

Not part of the LGBT community but this music hits me so hard 😁😢😪😭And i like my own comment because no one will

this song is so inspirational

The lyrics hit me so bad

I'm lying through my teeth DEEP I have a girlfriend because is the only way i can hide that i'm gay

I came out to my parents yesterday night.!🙌🏼

I thought he said "coming out at fifteen"

This past year has been the worst. My mother found out that I was questioning because she found out about my secret relationship with a girl the week of my 15th birthday. She found out because I was outed by one of my old catholic middle school "friends" told her. No celebration. No presents. Nothing. It completely destroyed our relationship and all for nothing because that girl dumped me over Snapchat about a month later. I love this song so much because it's so accurate. U want to find yourself but u don't wanna hurt anyone so you try to save your parents the heartbreak that your not what they wanted. "The truth runs wild, like a tear down a cheek" is so tru

God I love this so much. I'm Christian and biromantic (Asexual) but I used to identify as bisexual. And I remember when I felt my life turn around and become closer with God, I also felt like I was wrong for liking boy AND girls, even if I was conformable with it for several years. While I still relate to this song, I feel like God can look at me for me rather than who I'm attracted to

Does anyone else relate to this song... for someone else? I'm personally not apart of the LGBTQ+ community but almost all of my friends are. Trans ftm, lesbian, 2 bi, pan, I think one is even gay( though he hasn't came out yet), and I feel for them. Recently, my friends have all been coming out and I admire them a lot for it, saying as most of their parents don't believe in that. Love you A, H, As, Ad, Al, and C (wow so many A's)

Crying.......

Why is he counting to fifteen?

I’m 15

I just came out to my parents my dad told me he didn’t want to hear those kind of things and left the house...he wouldn’t look at me after I told him This song is one of the things helping me get through this

My parents are forcing me to go to church tomorrow so I'm gonna show up looking like complete sin

I have to say this, because it is so important: you do not need to reject religion in order to embrace your sexuality, nor does your sexuality impede upon your religious faith. There are ways to reconcile the two. It is not impossible.

Song recommendation, thematically similar: "My Forgiveness" by Beth Crowley. About rejecting the intolerance preached by religious folk.

To all the people who connect this song to their own conflict in being closeted and coming out...are you okay now? Has it gotten any better?

This song always makes me cry, because I know that if I'm gay I can't go to heaven. But I want to love who I want even if it's a girl.This song is saying how "if I'm losing a piece of me how do I get to heaven?" Which can mean the piece hes loseing is loving someone he can't love,God doesn't want that so he can't go to heaven. Then says "so if I'm losing a piece of me mabye I don't want heaven." Which means he's still going to love the person even if he goes to hell. Me and my family are Christian,but I'm gay so I see this song a different way. Pls don't get affended.

This is why I love Troye, he understands. This speaks to me on a very personal level

What does “counting to fifteen” mean ?

When i heard it for first time i cried

I just want to cry... It is so emotional... Lgbt community is here and will.be here forever

to na bad

this was my comming out song I rember My mom Finding me Kissing with my boyfriend and she got mad and told me to meet her home. I went home and sent her this video And told her to try to read the lyrics (she is Chinnese) she did and Came crying a told me to forgive her. I love my mom so much. My dad didnt took it well at all but He must be over it by now

srsly, i am a huge fan of troye's songs.. for his deep lyrics and music.. but i must stress that islam forbids LGBT in many ways

This song reminds me of a someone and its literally so beautiful aaaaaa

DADDY HEART BREAK AHAHAHA

Even I'm straight, I can relate to this song

Am i the only person that found this song through Ryan Stalvey

“Trying to embrace the picture I paint and color me free.” Those lyrics get me every time! This song honestly means a lot to me. I know it’s about Troye being gay, and it means a lot to him, but it means a lot to me in an entirely different way. This song is beautiful.

His song make me fine. All of his song is wonderful. so, everyday I listen his songs

Me when I come out soon.“THE TRUTH RUNS WILD!!” Screams it to my Christian mum. If I’m losing a piece of me maybe I don’t want Heaven.

I'm at a point in my life where I'm relating to this song a lot cause I've been trying to reconcile my sexuality with my religion and I'm so sad

check out my cover of this song on my channel!!!🔥🤗😊🔥😃🎹😱

such a underrated song :(

Without changing a part of me how do I get to heaven. If I’m losing a part of me mabey I don’t want heaven. Deeper meaning in those lyrics!!

This song is perfect for me plus there is a deeper meaning to it!!

Tbh i dont even know why im on a lyric vid i already know all the lyrics

I just came out to my homophobic dad. He told me to go to my room and not come out till he's talked to my mom. So I'm sitting here listening to the song that inspired me to come out. no matter what happens after tonight I don't have any regrets.

why is this the only song that calms me down?

I’m crying right now and the fact that listening to this song right now makes me wanna cry even more

i love this. so much. thank you.💧🌙

I searched this video because I didn't if you Troye was saying "I'm counting to fifteen" or "I'm counting to fifty"... So tysm.

Feeeeling like my heart's mistaken, ohhhh.

I didn't understand this song at first. But now, since I'm Asexual, I do.

I think i'm about to cry

it's "counting to fifty", not "fifteen"

this songs means a lot for me, thanks for this beautiful video

LOVE THIS SONG!

This song really makes me so sad, especially the part 'counting to fifteen' because I'm turning fifteen in a few months, meaning I'm gonna grow up and leave my childhood for good, and get prepared for adulthood and unwanted responsibilities 😭😭

If God wanted everyone to be the same, he would have made only one person

I love you so much Safiya my dad hates that I'm gay and I'm sorry we can't be together but I love you so goddamn much and I promise you I always will.

This song was me and my gfs song mainly because she was keeping it a secret that she was bisexual from her dad. Today, it's been 12 days since the last day we spoke/ since I broke up with her. She wasn't ready and I still love the fuck out of her. I miss her and idk what else to say really. She was the one that I was hoping I'd stay with. But honestly she kept me confident about being apart of LGBTQ. Well yeah idk what else to say but yeah .

listen to this at 0.75 :)

How many other people noticed that when he sings the part I'm counting to 15 he only sings it 12 times am I the only one that it drives crazy that he doesn't sing that part 15 times

I can relate to this so much I’m crying

Being gay myself I can really relate to this song and I love it

I loved this song, then I saw that the meaning was behind him being gay. I love this song more now. -Gay Lover here, nice to meet you-

Without losing a piece of me how do I get to heaven ?! Without changing a piece of me how do I get to heaven ?! DEEP

this is Love. thank you.

I am already in heaven while listening to this

THIS IS SO SAAAAAAD :( IM NOT PART OF LGBT BUT I CAN FEEL THEM SO MUCH....

Man. If you guys knew what I knew your hopes would rise a little :)

Explain to me is this about changing being Gay?

500th time listening to this song and it still gives me chills.

What does "counting to fifty" means?

The meaning behind this(it’s not really cuz “without losing a piece of me,how do I get to heaven” and basically him talking about how he doesn’t want to change an important part of him because he’s worried he won’t be accepted into heaven)it makes me cry thinking about all the confusion and Oof I’ll leave now baiii